I’m so fucking happy. I haven’t felt this free in close to years. The other day I reached out the window on a long drive to the beach with my friends, and I just left my arm out there and let the sun glow on it a little. It warmed my whole body up and I looked at the green of the trees zipping by and I tilted my head up to the sky, and it was breathtakingly beautiful. The blue was vast and endless, no matter how far we kept driving it was just gorgeous and infinite. So much beauty was around me that day, I felt as if I had everything I ever wanted. And sure nothing was perfect, I wasn’t traveling to the most exclusive get away in the world, maybe I’m not as thin and frail as I’d like to be, my hair was a mess sure, but nothing mattered because at that very moment I finally felt free of myself. My own mind wasn’t my own worst enemy. I didn’t feel sad. I didn’t feel hopeless or tired or stressed. I wasn’t thinking about my responsibilities that I had to follow through with when I got home. I felt like how every kid should feel. I feel absolutely free.

Save yourself the agony,  do NOT fall too hard. First it’s because they’re attractive, then they have a nice personality. And before you know it it’s the way they lick their lips before they speak, the way they squint their eyes when they laugh, the way they drive, and somehow you could be staring into space but the moment they call your name your ears suddenly perk up. Then it’s too late. When you finalize realize how deep your in it’s too late to swim yourself out of the well.

The moral of the story is watch out for yourself.